If this is your first let us hope it is not your last.
There is quite a pronounced touch here, a decided eye with a surprising flush of technique; deft, if a tad hesistant, yet, especially for a very first pass, here is an artist-to-be with great promise.
What can one say in this flash that will someday certain cause pause, well, how about these: focus, bring it together, see, make, get tight and absolutely sure--bettermoreagainyes!
Remember dear sitomize, there is only art; family, lovers, friends, jobs, even inebriations can wink in and out--things change without understanding along the way: but, in the end, when it's you and what you have done and nobody even wants to care, it will be the art--your art--it is the art that remains, that defines actual worth, and all that does and will matter, at least from a certain charged point-of-view.
You may find library books on Vermeer, Titian, Goya, and Rembrandt of interest.